This bitch is back. I mean the woman who writes because she loves it. The woman who writes her own stories for no audience but herself. Stories she loves telling.
I went back through some of my old archives- Confessions of a Likely Spinster blog posts. 2012 and beyond. Baking, dating, and working at a hotel. Silly but true stories about my childhood self. Stories that weren’t part of a brand. I wasn’t looking for the right fonts and colors that would attract readers. She wasn’t spending hours editing and revising, researching, developing content, and wondering if it would find its audience. She wasn’t worried about building something she could monetize
She just wrote.
Then 2018 rolled around. I was working on my first graduate degree. I was dating (now married to) a very business-minded man. In one blog post, I wrote that I was losing my voice. I didn’t have anything of interest to write about. That simply wasn’t true. She was getting buried in being an adult and trying to make a “successful” life.
The number of times I have written the words ” I have lost myself” or “I’m trying to find myself” in the last 14 years is kind of wild. The reality is she never left. Just got buried and a little forgotten.
Yesterday, I wrote a little snippet about a ridiculous happening with my two-year-old. It reminded me a little of my old writings. This morning, I immediately went to go find my old blog posts. They were great. Not overly polished. Not edited. Not clean. Just me. Some I will be reposting because they are great and deserve to live on an active blog, not in the archives unseen.
So here I am, Jessica Lenore, the woman who writes for the love of writing. No data. No facts. Just observations and life’s silly stories.
ADHD and Awkward 
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